Failure

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We all fail every now and then.
We do things in our own strength and get upset when it doesn’t go our way.

However, shouldn’t we just be grateful we have things to fight for. That we have something to believe in.
I recently failed for the first time in my life at something big.
I usually always pull through and God doesn’t allow me to experience things that he knows I need in order to succeed.
However, there are many other factors in life that contribute to failure.

If anything a failure makes you stronger. And you realize who you really are after the failure. Do you completely give up, throw in the towel and walk away?

Or do you rearrange things in your life to help you do better next time?
It’s not time to back down. It’s time to pull forward.

When King David failed, he strengthened himself in the Lord, he didn’t give up, but he pulled through.
The key factor is the Lord.

The joy of the Lord is your strength.

He will never fail.

Surrender

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Why do we think we can fight God?

Surrender is our only choice.

Human reasoning tells us that we know what is best for us when we actually don’t.

Only GOD knows.

Humanity has been fighting to be in control of every aspect of life and leaving no room for God.

It only leads to a mess and to disaster.

Lord, forgive me for fighting all this time. Forgive me for telling you how I think it should be done.

Thank you for access to the throne room and we can speak to you.

We can ask anything in Jesus name.

May I always know that fighting you, is a losing battle and I’ll never win.

Your ways are higher and always better.

I surrender.

Easy

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We can sometimes make things harder than they need to be.

When we rely on our own strength, that is when we will feel the most weak.

When we keep doing what we want to do in our own timing, then we get disappointed if it does not work out.

I don’t know about you but I’m done trying to force my life to be what I want it to be.

It has never worked before and it for sure is not working now.

Only God’s plan will prevail.

I can make plans all I want but if it is not God’s will, it will go nowhere.

What I must do now, is accept his will.

All the hustling and bustling is worth nothing if I am exhausted at the end of it all and want to go no further.

When God is control, I can relax and let go.

It will all feel easy at the end of my road.

Forget the phrase “Let a man pursue you”

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If you are a woman of God, you should be pursuing God first and only.

Any man that God brings into your life romantically, should also be pursuing God.

Both of you come together and pursue God together.

The phrase “let the man pursue you”, always made me feel unworthy and unloved if I was not being pursued.

A man’s love has never satisfied me, has never made me feel whole, and have never brought me comfort, joy, or security.

Only the love of God brings me complete peace, complete joy, pure happiness, complete surrender, meaning and fulfillment.

How can I submit to a husband if I cannot submit to God?

Allow yourself to submit to God first. To be your husband first. Allow yourself to pursue God first.

God is always pursuing us and we consistently ignore him and spend little time with him.

I have learned that a great man is one who loves God and will do anything for him.

I also need to love God more than anything and anyone of this earth.

Let your husband and you compete with who can love God more.

Who is willing to sacrifice more, fast more, pray more, worship more, submit more.

The more you both draw near to God, the more God draws near to you.

Pursue God more than your earthly husband.

Stop worrying about when you will meet him.

Don’t even say God will bring him in the right time and in the right season.

Your life is more than waiting for a man to pursue you or waiting to get married.

Your life should be a testimony of constant pursuit toward God and the man he allows in your life is only there to help you pursue God even more.

Focus on pursuing God, not a man’s pursuit of you .

Puzzle Piece

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Only God knows what the full puzzle will look like.

We see only one puzzle piece at a time.

It is easy to judge the end result without all of the evidence.

There is no evidence that your ending is going to end in disaster.

There is no evidence that you will not have trouble.

There is evidence that God will be with you every step of the way.

There is evidence that He knows exactly what he is doing and there is nothing you can do to stop him.

Don’t give your power away to unfinished endings.

Each day is a new day to give it all to Jesus.

Let him lead the way.

Back to Fishing

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Sometimes we go back to the familiar.

we become complacent , bored, and unsure of what to do next.

Going back to who we once were, feels familiar, feels simple

but it does not propel us further into our destiny

Sarai Syndrome. 

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Sarai syndrome. 

Waiting for something for years. So many years. The more you think about it, it all becomes tears. You’ve fought long and hard to be ok. Long and hard to believe the truth. The lies scream loudly and talk holding with no proof. The Sarai syndrome has got you again. Don’t forget you’re on your way to the promise land. Bumps and bruises will all occur. Many struggles and pain you will have to endure. Only the grace of God will get you through. Only your love for him can follow through. Your love for him will draw you near. Your love for him will be so clear. He will make a way where there is no way. Yet here you are again staring at a brick wall. You know the promise is true but it takes a long time to see. It’s not on your time but on Gods and only then will you see. You laugh, you get mad, you don’t understand. You’re frustrated , tired, weary for all the pain. Emotional, mental, spiritual, it’s all a drain. The only one to pull you through gave you a promise to hold onto. The promise keeps you going when you feel like giving up and throwing it all away. Then you remember there’s brighter days coming. The promise must come true. You’re not dead yet so there is still so much for you. So much for you to discover, experience, and enjoy. The hard times only make you stronger, better. They bring you close to God and his glory. He’s not afraid of your mess. He’s not afraid of your dirty. Bring it to him to cleanse you off and make you white as snow. Believe it will get better. Believe your heart will grow. Your roots will grow deeper and deeper rooted in him. Oh now wait the Sarai syndrome starts to begin. You spiral down all once again. Sinning seems likes it’s winning until you realize who you are again. You are chosen, you are destined, you are created to do great things. Your promise will change the world and you are raging within. You want to see what lies ahead and try to live in the now. You wonder how can you make it another day without the one thing you long for. Allow Christ to comfort your soul. Right before during and after the Sarai syndrome unfolds. 

Revival

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for years you’ve been trying to resuscitate

the life that you once had

you realize , it was all fake.

everyone around you was a lie.

they were all living a lie.

you were the one being authentic in a fraudulent place.

you had your wake-up call but still feel like your life is asleep.

should you have back once you once had?

no , you’re waiting for something much better.

you are waiting for greater things to come forth and come ahead.

there are days you feel so dead inside again that you do and try anything to feel alive

even if that means going where you know you shouldn’t or are doing what you know you couldn’t,

all to relive the stress, the pain, the deadness,

the dead feeling of losing everything and gaining wisdom yet standing alone for the truth.

the truth is what you stand firm on now and you wont settle for less,

even if that means every now and then you gotta recognize real so you don’t lose yourself again.

don’t worry, one day you’ll have rest.

rest for your weary soul and worn down heart.

your heart will beat so loud you can hear it through your shirt.

your smile will be from ear to ear.

you will feel so alive and so free like nothing every happened before

and you will no longer remember the things of old.

all your hopes and dreams have come true and nothing or no one can stop you.

revival has shown up.

revival has been here

all this time

waiting for you to rise up

and appear.

Abuse

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Go where the love is. 

Go where people care about you. 

Go where you are accepted. 

Why try to make something work when it isn’t working?

Why keep lying to yourself as if the person or people will change?

You do not deserve the hurt or the pain. 

Life is too short to live it in misery. 

Misery hates its company. 

The abuser is not there to make you feel good or happy. 

They’re there to make you feel as miserable as they do and control your every move. 

They abuse. 

They use. 

Go be free. 

Get unused. 

Get unstuck. 

Believe you are worth more than you know. 

No abuse can make you lose hope.